One thing I noticed about getting older, is the connection between my mind and body. When I’m off balance, I can work on coming back into balance as a whole, which I think is learned over time from being on the planet. (Ellen Barrett)
When something is out of balance in our lives we can easily be thrown off track, no matter how hard we try to stay sure-footed. It can be anything that begins to disconnect the mind and body from its natural state of wholeness – physical health, mental health, jobs, circumstances, environment, people, the weather. Doesn’t matter.
But when it takes hold, it’s powerful. Especially when it makes no sense, and leaves us feeling helpless and exposed…raw and open…defenseless.
This is especially true when our voice is taken away, or someone attacks us leaving us confused and unsure of what will come next. That’s a hard one. Being caught in the midst of someone else’s imbalance hits you at every facet of your being, even when it’s obvious the other person is deeply struggling in their own lack of personal stability. The struggle can quickly become ours, and its grip is hard to loosen.
There are those of us who choose to acknowledge the disparity and work it out in our psyches to regain a sense of balance and peace. Then there are those who choose to act it out by trying to hurt their opponents in life. What they don’t know is that will never provide them with the peace or balance they clearly seek, it’s only an illusion.
The key when we are entangled with a person or a situation that impedes our physical, emotional or spiritual balance, is to use it as an opportunity to peer into our life and re-calibrate.
Emotional healing is not a destination, it’s an awareness. Although yes, there is a point of feeling better, having things flow more smoothly, more charm and less char, and an ability to slough off the crap as it comes in with more ease. But the concept of healing is just that – a concept – of something we aspire to and hope for and dream of and obtain in increments of both internal and external awareness.
My awareness has been quite heightened this week, as the backwash of Scary Mrs. Ex stormed onto our shores again. Her seemingly delusional antics are incredibly exhausting. As well, the residue of my former bookstore days innocently appeared out of nowhere. Then I received results from a Pap smear that were classified as abnormal. Turns out it was nothing to be concerned about, but that was enough. I am drawing a line in the sand and saying a loud and clear NO to all of that.
Now I am trying to come back into balance. The connection between mind and body is clear. I must remove the dis-ease in my life by bringing my thoughts and my heart to a more pure, higher, cleaner vibration. Rising above it as they say, higher and cleaner than the toxic people and things around me, no matter what. Why should I grow a disease from someone else’s personal dis-ease that is thrust upon me to deal with. NO.
I often remember that the only consistency in life is change. Knowing our feelings will change, knowing we will feel better, or at least believing we will, even if the respite is short between blows. It feels like blows, when that mallet comes down in whatever form it comes. The gentle approach of acknowledging our distress, then kindly asking those feelings to please flow away so that any dis-ease (or even disease) flows away with them, is a step toward greater balance.
I watched the people power washing our house out the window. The machine was loud and powerful, cleaning off and washing away the dirt and grime, muck and residue, years of it layered on the house. It was a much bigger job than I knew. Kind of symbolic in a way. Life is like that isn’t it.